i like alfred...hitchcock

i really like the movie dumbo. i watched it earlier with a couple friends and i forgot how much i enjoyed it. i mean the storks, cute baby animals, an adorable elephant with ears the size of his body, tears, violence, freaky drunken dream elephants, i mean what's not to love...besides those elephants he dreamed when he was drunk, those things always weirded me out. bleh... but yeah. i really like that movie. i love the outdoors. i love being outside especially in the country or anywhere that there is vast open spaces. i just love the feeling of being so small compared to what is around me that i can just sit are stare and take in the undeniable beauty of God's creation. being out in the middle of a field with rolling hills all around with trees and a stream. it is like getting a giant dad hug from God through his creation. it just kinda swoops you up and traps you in this fantastic hug. i love hugs but i would have to say that dad hugs are my favorite. i love getting to see my dad and get a hug from him. i wrap my arms around his neck and he picks me up and then i like to hang on him. it makes me feel safe and loved. i am most definitely a night owl and i love to be outside at night which is something i don't get to do often. even just sitting on my couch looking out my window into the night gives me a great sense of longing to be out in it and be a part of it. it is strange to think that the school year is almost over. it definitely didn't turn out or look anything like i thought it might or had hoped for. it has been a hard year, probably my hardest one so far, but it has also been really good. although there are things that i would have liked to turn out differently there are a lot of things that i never would have imagined happening that i wouldn't trade for anything. i have this strong feeling about so many things that i can sense sown in my core but i have no idea how to describe it. i can't seem to come up with words that can clearly paint the picture that is imprinted on my heart and in my mind so there it will stay for now. i sometimes have trouble believing that i am being used by God because it isn't always in ways i can see and it is sometimes hard to believe that he is doing things in the lives of people that i so greatly long to see following him again it has in the past made me cry my eyes out to the point where i can't even speak. but God is really doing amazing things. earlier this semester i had one of the best and most encouraging conversations with a friend that i love dearly that i had had since freshmen year. i am excited to have more thunderstorms, i love listening to the rain and thunder. it is most relaxing to listen to when falling asleep, and watching lightning...hmmmmmmm i love it.

This is what the LORD says, he who made the earth, the LORD
who formed it and established it - the LORD is his name.
"Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and
unsearchable things you do not know."

Jeremiah 33:2-3