roller skates and ping pong

so on wednesday i had my second interview which was basically a day of job shadowing to see if we were able to keep up and handle the job. i went around with a girl named ashley and we went out with a guy named bj and another guy named dustin who was also applying four a job. another guy, i think his name was spencer, went out with a guy named mike and another guy whose name was either ryan or brian. ashley, bj, and mike were all in a meeting with the director of the des moines office when we got there[i was first:)] mike came out to give us a brief update of what was going on and i won on having the best handshake(props to my pops who has a good handshake, i learned it from him. i must admit i really hate flimsy handshakes) so then we left in our groups. we spent the day going to different towns trying to sell different products to people at different businesses. this was quite an experience. they would call introducing a product to someone "pitching" so ashley and bj were discussing which one of us(me and dustin) were going to be the first ones to "pitch" a product to someone so the next place we went i "pitched" a product to a guy and he said no but he didn't interrupt me and tell me to leave. i guess dustin never "pitched" to anyone from what it sounded like and i didn't see him again once we got back so i don't know if bj decided he didn't want to suggest he get hired or what because basically the people we went out with would say yeah you should hire this person or not. so we get back and we had a little quiz question thingy to fill out and i was the only one of the three of us that went out that was sitting in the office. so the four sales people and the director lady were meeting talking about the day and what not and the sales people kept coming in and out and then finally i went in with the director and ashley and we started talking about the day and then the director said she was offering me a job and that i started the next day(thursday) when i asked if i could have time to thing about it she said maybe i didn't want it if i had to thing about it but left it up to ashley with whether or not i could have time to decide. so she said i could and i need to call her tomorrow with my decision. the job would be starting out in sales and then i could move into any division i wanted to and would be a manager and from what they said could make more money in a year then i ever dreamed of. so wednesday night i was stressed out and freaking out about whether or not i should accept this job offer. this was the first interview i've had and i really would like to have a job. it also looked like it would be a really interesting job and the people seemed really nice and i would love to be able to pay my loans back as quick as possible. part of me really wanted to say yes out of a genuine interest. they also talked about a lot of people not being able to handle the job and i can be a very prideful/stubborn/competitive person so my flesh really just wanted to prove that i could handle it because i really think i could(they specifically said that not a lot of girls could handle it which made me want to prove that i could even more. i'm really not some crazy feminist i promise. but i really don't like to be thought of as a "stereotypical" girl(not that that is necessarily bad) i'm just definitely not it.) so after a lot of freaking out, thought/consideration, prayer, talking to people, and walking around in circles getting dizzy; i decided to say no. it just doesn't seem to be the direction that God wants me to go with my life so i am still unemployed but this time it is by choice not the lack of opportunity. that was a lot of rambling and i hope it makes sense if not feel free to ask me to clarify.