How do I learn to let go?

Day by day, God is teaching me more and more about who I am. My tendencies...My insecurities...Who I am in Him... The newest self-realization I've had deals with relationships.

I can't let go of relationships.

Friends from High School...from my dorm floor...Church...conferences, etc. I can't do it. If I put time into a relationship, and work to develop it - it kills me to let it go, to see it fade. I even feel guilty from time to time when I see a "former" friend on campus and realize that I've failed to keep in touch with someone. I don't know if this is God laying certain people on my heart and not letting me give up on pursuing and praying for these people, or it is personal insecurities and wounds from my past effecting my life today. One thing I do know, I've lost a lot of relationships over the past few years, and there are still times I feel the pain creeping back into my chest.

yet another funny story

so this is once again a funny story from my life. i seem to have plenty of them so i don't know how i ever get bored. my car doesn't like cold weather. sat my parents came down and my dad brought his battery charger, nemko(?) heater, and a little generator moter thing. while trying to plug the heater into an extension cord it kept killing the moter. so we pluged the heater into the otehr cord and my dad was going to have me plug the charger into the noncooperative cord. i was holding one end and my dad plugged the other end into the generator. this led to flames shooting out at me from the otehr end. seeing how this wasn't what i was expecting i screamed threw the cord in the air and asked my dad why he was trying to kill me with his extension cord, starting on fire wasn't on my to do list that day. anyway it all ended well. my car started and i got hickory park!! yummy!!

i'm a klutz

I am a clumsy person. I tend to run myself into things a lot. I ram my head into my loft frequently and I tend to be very abusive to my feet. I had been quite proud of myself for not falling on campus yet this semester, sadly that ended today. My car was being evil because apparently it thinks it needs to live in a warmer climate and didn’t want to start. Brent and Katie tired to help me jump it but it still wouldn’t start. So I called AAA to see if they could get it and on my way out to meet the guy I managed to find a huge patch of ice in the parking lot and slide forward, backwards, and then I fell on my knees and gave myself two more bruises to poke. I got the first one while I was working on my jewelry project. My dad called me when I was soldering so I was rushing out into the hall since my phone had been ringing for awhile, and I ran my arm into something and got a lovely bruise right on the muscle. I was bored one night so I colored it with Christy’s highlighters. I have been poking it a lot…it is fun.

wow...

world's ugliest dog. umm yeah, i don't know what to think about this.
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