...continued

so continuing from my very short previous post i ran into katie's wall. this was due to a severe lack of sleep seeing how i was awake for 87.5% of sunday...not a good thing to do regularly. i went home friday morning and came back down to ames saturday night and on my way home to burt i came to the conclusion that i need to work on having more patience with/for impatient people, because they tend to make me really impatient. for example i was just getting into humbolt and the road had switched from 2 lane to a 4 lane so there was a semi in the left lane next to me and a van driving very very close to the bumper of my car, seeing how i was going 5 over the speed limit i really didn't appreciate that much and i just don't like to have people tailing me while i drive so i slowed down to the speed limit to try to get the point across that i wasn't going to go faster and i didn't like them being so close and i guess it worked because they backed off and then shortly after that they turned, then i was very happy and had a great sense of satisfaction and then i had the "oh no, that's bad" feeling. ooooo and when i was at home my mum and sister made venison pizza so i got to eat some of my deer and it was exciting:) i also got to play with power tools which lead to some slight frustrations and caused me to leave late which made me slightly tense so i stopped in good old fort dodge and took advantage of 24 oz mountain dew for 99 cents. also if anyone has a chance to stop by the gallery in design (181) the bfa senior show is going on, i will have at least one thing in it even though i am not graduating this semester, i will be in there from 1-2 on wed the 22nd. but yes patience, most specifically patience with impatient people...

i ran into a wall

i love being an art major but right now design=death...more to come later

back from the abyss...or no longer forgotten

so this is really old but i kinda forgot about it and christy just reminded me tonight so here was what was going on 3 months ago or so. :)
it's 16 after midnight and i should be doing art history. there are five more days of classes til thanksgiving break and i so greatly long for them to be over that i could probably cry. i long for a break from classes and the constant business that has been my life this semester. i wasn't able to go to encounter this year which was pretty discouraging for me and i have definitely been feeling the effects of not being able to get more then a couple hours away from everything to be alone with God. i long to be able to just go off and spend an entire day out in the woods or in nature somewhere with God, sigh, that would be beautiful.
one of the big things God has been teaching me this semester is to be content with my circumstances. this semester hasn't looked much at all like i would have liked or thought it might. i have a really busy semester with school and just my classes take up most of the day. i miss having with a similar minded roommate and i miss having girl rockers on the floor with me.
these are the lyrics to the song different by acceptance
Tell myself, on the ride home.
Getting tired, hating all I've known.
Holding on, like it's all I have.
Count me out, when it's clear that I, find it hard to say.
And you, find it hard to care.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

Got this way, upfront but never true.
God I'm wrong, it's just the way I am.
Crashing down, any chance you hear.
Caving in, any chance that you, could see inside of me.
And I don't know what to say, It's fine.
This isn't Hollywood.
So fine, getting in your way.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

I'm taking a chance, this could be different.
This could be all I'm waiting for.
Taking a chance, this could be different.
This could be all I'm waiting for.

I wanted to see something that's different, something you said would change in me.
Wanted to be, anything different, everything you would change in me.

Something that's different
Something that's different
this song always leaves me with a sense of longing. i want to look different then the world to the girls on my floor and the people in my classes. and i really don't know if i do that enough or even at all. i sometimes feel like i'm not around enough for anyone to see my life. i want people to be able to clearly see God in my life, i want Him to change me so i reflect Him more. i want to be someone who's different, i don't want to live a comfortable american christian life.

so i wanted to be poetic

I sometimes wonder where I’ll go
I sometimes wonder when.
I think about the life I’ll live
and I want it to be for Him.
I don’t know if I’ll marry,
I don’t know where I’ll work.
I know He holds my future
and I’m in the palm of His hand.
I know He knows what’s best for me,
even if it wasn’t part of my plan.
I know He’ll never let me down
even when I turn away.
I know that He is listening
every time I stop to pray.
He never leaves me, always loves me,
and waits patiently for me each day;
to stop and spend sometime with Him
and hear what He has to say.
I know my God is sovereign,
I know my God is just,
I know my God is faithful,
so in Him I place my trust.
I know my God is mighty,
I know my God is true,
I know my God is waiting,
to help me with all of my cares.

mmmmmm...venison pizza and yes Jesus loves me

on sunday my parents stopped on their way home from des moines and brought me...some of the meat from my deer!! yeah!! it was exciting. i haven't had any yet but i really want to make a pizza. i made venison pizza in high school once for a class where we had to cook. i really liked those classes, making food and eating it during class is about the best idea for a high school class ever. oddly enough i never took art classes in high school, so it still kinda amuses me that i am an art major. although it can be very stressful at times and causes a great lack of sleep i wouldn't change it for the world. although at times i hate it and the thought of a needed hospital visit to get out of homework and all the craziness is sometimes very tempting i wouldn't change it for the world. and even though it is something i was first taught a long time ago, it is still nice to be reminded that God loves me even if it seems like something insignificant such as moving back the due dates of my two projects, *BIG SIGH* of relief.

sad songs...whoot

i like sad music. i don't entirely know why but i enjoy listening to sad depressing mellow music. hence forth my i heart keane group on facebook.

here are the lyrics to my favorite song
BEDSHAPED
Many's the time I ran with you down
The rainy roads of our old town
Many the lives we lived in each day
And buried altogether

Don't laugh at me
Don't look away
You'll follow me back

With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped and legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know

I know you think I'm holding you down
And I've fallen by the wayside now
And I don't understand the same things as you
But I do

Don't laugh at me
Don't look away
You'll follow me back

With the sun in your eyes
And on your own
Bedshaped and legs of stone
You'll knock on my door
And up we'll go
In white light
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know

(Instrumental Break)

Oh, and up we'll go
In white
I don't think so
But what do I know?
What do I know?
I know

http://www.keanemusic.com/